When my sister was home last week, we had a long talk and of course my life plan came up. She was asking about when I was going to graduate and what I wanted to do and I kept drawing blanks. She then asked, "Well, what are you passionate about?" Since then, that has been one thing that has constantly been on my mind. As sad as it is, I can't think of one thing that I could truly be passionate about. The only thing I could think of was music but I can't sing or play an instrument or anything. I always loved listening to music and downloading new bands to find new music I loved, but I just can't think of a way to turn that into the rest of my life. I saw an ad online for internship for a company that manages bands based in Chicago, but I doubt I'll get that.
I just wish I could figure out some way to get my life going in a direction that I know would work out. For the past few years, I keep trying to decide what I want to do and where I want to be but I can't find any answers. Honestly, I don't care if I'm rich and have this successful career. I don't need that. All I want is just to be happy. If I end up poor in a small house with a meaningless job, I'll be ok with that as long as I can wake up everyday and be happy. For now, I just want to try and figure out a way to somehow see the country and find my own little niche.
Sorry if this post was pointless and a waste of time with you, it's just something that has been on my mind for a long time now.
One Love,
Ryan
P.S. If you have never heard the song Aqueous Transmission by Incubus, I think you should find a way to right now. It has become my new favorite song and no matter how I'm feeling, it always cheers me up. It just makes me want to float down a river with Brandon Boyd in a very bromantical way. Maybe one day....
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"Lying face up on the floor of my vessel. I marvel at the stars and feel my heart overflow." :-D
...and "I’m on fire, and now I think I'm ready to bust a move. Check it out I’m rocking steady to the beat in my head that goes oh, oh, oh, oh. I know that she’s the only one. I’d rather waste our time together. Yeah, ‘cause we can get down." ;)
Also, I liked this post.
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